The list of traumatic events I am sharing with you are not going to contain dates nor specific details. I feel that the details are not important to discuss with anyone at this time, I may share some details down the road, but I need to protect myself and my recovery process. Plus I need to protect any one person or group of people involved, as I have not asked for their permission to use their names nor do I choose to want to.
The list will be in chronological order, but again dates will not be used. I also know that I am opening myself up to judgement, criticism and doubt; which has played a huge role to hindering my recovery process in the past. However, if you are reading this and find it to be fake, false, pathetic, ridiculous, shameful, ignorant, you can’t agree with it or some other form of negativity; do yourself a favor and stop reading my posts and don’t waste your time sending me an email or comment.
This is my story, my experience and my truth; no one can take that away from me. I am not here to convince anyone of MY truth. I am here to hopefully help another human being suffering like me to not feel alone.
Deep breath…..holy shit……here it goes:
- Father moved out / parents divorced
- Abused by narcissistic & alcoholic mother
- Date raped as a teenager
- Infant son kidnapped by his father under false motives for 3 months
- Stalked for 2 years by an acquaintance through work, convicted, served no jail time
- Mother died of cirrhosis from alcoholism
- Attacked & strangled by unknown assailant
- Casualty of domestic violence / verbal & physical
- Personal addiction from PTSD relapse
May I never have to add another item to this list. I believe it would be the final straw to break this camels back.